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Aug. 23rd, 2010

Writer's Block:

What was the last thing that made you cry?

Stuff. Relationships. Friendship, kinship etc. It's giving me a headache! :(
And it was just roughly 1to 2hours ago. This feelings sucks :(

May. 31st, 2010

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things are just ..... so complex? i cant stand it anymore/ home, school. everywhere. in fact, the least complex now is school, if you actually minus away all homework and projects.....

Mar. 20th, 2010

Figurine Dog

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i feel useless. i probably am... hais.


im loving Korean stuff all over again.

Jung Yong Hwa <3
Jang Geun Suk <3
Lee Hong Ki <3

Mar. 13th, 2010

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Jan. 9th, 2010

Writer's Block: Reflections

What are your fondest memories of 2009? What were the low points? All told, what were the most significant events of 2009? Do you wish you could do it all over again?

2009... the year by which i have had the most memories, good ones and bad ones. tee hee. well, it was my O Level year so.... it is kindda expected right right?

made me realise a lot of stuff... some things just became clearer to me. like who actually are my friends.... i see them all, like just so suddenly. even till now, to some of them i'd just smile and go along with it. but deep down inside, i already knew the answer. and i also come to know a wider group of people who actually had love&cared for me all along, just that i took them for granted&didnt actually notice their goodness. sorry ><" hahaa well, at least i know now! :D hehee.

low points would be regarding friends and results i guess.... i got the worst results of all time! i cried. really, freaking. i cried for the first time in my life for academics that year.....

significant? biao gu's wedding! (: hongkong, china.... hahaha oscar?  LOL no way, so see meimei, you're the one that likes him okays! wahhaha =D hehee. but i loooove going hongkonf. gorgeous food! :D

Writer's Block: Sunrise, Sunset

When you wake up, what's the first thing you think about? What's the last thing you think about before you fall asleep? Are they the same?

usually on a school day, first thoughts would be damned, i don't wanna wake up. neither do i wanna go school. AGES!^@(!^@&!^@&!&@*!@(*!@*. hahaa

other than that...it kindda actually depends i suppose! sometimes, if i have a dream or nightmare, i'd wake up thinking about it, what it means. and if the dreams looks so real, i'd really start thinking if it's gonna happen.

on dreamless nights, i'd think about what i'd do that day. whether i'll waste another day of my life, rotting at home or what? i...somehow will try to get over the things that happened the day before, i guess?


before i sleep, it'll be recounts of the day. sometimes when i miss a certain someone, it'd be about the certain someone. or it could also be how grateful i am to a certain someone or just reflecting. feelings, emotions, actions..... (:

Dec. 17th, 2009

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been sitting here for some time alrdy .. hahaa i didnt think about lk, only about blogger&wordpress :/ seems like blogger can't be accessed here. oh well. and wordpress? i don't know, but seems like the posting page can't actually be loaded D: too small to be seen lah :0

watching for the show to load... very long leh -.-" ran out of things to le cause facebook can't be accessed here either. hahaa bet yuo can guess where i am at now :DD lol actually, lj also isn't loading.... cause i can only see the post part (no italice sign or anything :() hais....

bought lots of stuff ytd, yepps. hahaa esp DVD... so many that even i myself can't seem to believe it still O.o

i DON'T WANT to go bali. freak you >.> why can't you have last minute plans coming up??! if yes, them it's all freakingly, happily cancelled! tada! there you have it. so simple yet so hard to be conveyed :( what a sad world this is, right?


anw i also went to visit Noah's Ark when i was in hong kong, just that i didn't actualy get to see the garden with the many pretty animals :( but... yeah, it's proven that Noah's Ark DO exist and that Jesus Christ is real.... i really have to work on my faith in God .... End of the world's coming...... really soon... ice glaciers' are becoming part of history soon.. not to forget snow .... i really hope that everyone i know will be saved [:

Nov. 17th, 2009

(no subject)

suddenly i wanted to read wenwen's blog&i realised i havent updated my lj D: been busy with wordpress hahaha.

anyway, i just realised that i've missed out a lot in life. as well as chances to create memories with those i love. oh well, time flew and the chance's gone. i only know that now, i have very limited time to spend with them as im leaving on the 24th.. which is next tues. i hope they'll have fun(: and if they need me, im always here for them. it's just whether they want to rely on me as a friend i guess..

erm erm.. im really hoping that i'll get into a JC, and if possible, one that is near my house cause i can't go poly; i don't know what i want! and if Lord permits, i promise to study real hard and try to minimise the amount of time slacking&playing. I promise. i... don't want to regret again, just like how i've spent my 4 years in tkg where im just a zombie. hahaa

today's prom.... i don't like preparing for such things. ^^ but im just hoping&praying to God that, i won't be deserted by friends; cause i know i'll just start thinking of the worst and start crying when i reach home... and i hate it when i cry, it just means im weak. i've cried a lot the past few weeks due to O's... so i told myself i have to be stronger; i can't cry anymore. =) and that i want to have more courage&faith in God, cause i know that the end of the world is coming very soon.... even w/o the holy spirit, i want my friends to try believing in God, cause i want them saved. Lord, please lead them to you Lord. Please, as i am not very brilliant neither am born with a silver tongue...

God Bless!

Aug. 17th, 2009

Empty.



As a kid, i used to fantasize about the future.
so distant yet so near, so real.

Later, as i grew up,
i realised that so many things just don't go the way you want them to.
things just goes off.
Then came friendship, which i placed so much hope on.
Which actually, eventually just "poof" into dust
and no one remembers.

.........................................

I seem to have ceased from the hearts of people.
I only know how to be clingy to the past
and not embrace what i currently have.
Maybe, that's why im like this :/

........................................

I saw hatred, annoyance in their eyes...
i always thought good of them, to be angels and such.
But none of them were.
none.

and eventually, i gave up on them.
Because i knew that,
no matter how much i care&love them, do my best for them, think of them
they .... don't care. Because it's not significant to them.

So... at the end of the day,
im just a tool.
then i'll start laughing at my hideous mistakes.
At the amount of time i've wasted, just to dedicate it to them.
Then i cry.

Everytime it hurts so much,
I don't know how to continue.

So many times i've thought of hiding, escaping.
But none'll work.
Cause the feeling and hurt's still there.
Buried deep down in my heart.
It had left a scar there already.


Crying has became my best friend ever since then.

Writer's Block: And the Apple Goes To

Who is/was your favorite teacher in school?
Mrs soloman [:
she made me love science.
She made me explore a lot lot things,
she made learning fun [:

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